Who to choose?


I never thought it was possible, but it is. How can you love two men at the same time? How can you live with someone and when he’s out, make love to another one? How can you make love to your fiancé’s best friend?

I don’t remember how it happened. Well, I did, but… Sigh…
When I was introduced to them, they both got to me. Seb with his beautiful green eyes and his sexy smile and Urs with his penetrating look and great body. They both put in an effort to win me over and it was Urs who succeeded.

I thought Seb didn’t mind, but I guess he just waited for the right moment. I moved in with Urs and it was amazing. I loved him and I knew he loved me. We were made for each other.


But then there was Seb’s birthday party. He invited us for a party at a nightclub and we had a great time. We all had a lot to drink, so I guess that’s the reason it happened.
When I came back from the toilet, he was waiting for me. His sexy smile should have warned me, but I guess I didn’t want to see what was about to happen.

“Bonsoir Chérie. Are you enjoying yourself?”
I nodded. “Yes, it’s a great party.”
“Ah oui, but it could get even better.” He said, leaning towards me.
“What do you mean?”

Before I knew it, he was kissing me. And I did nothing to stop him. My hands went around his neck and he pulled me close. I felt his arousal and I knew I had to make him stop. But I couldn’t.
His hands slipped under my skirt and he cupped my butt.
“I want you. I need you.” He breathed against my lips.
“I want you too.”
Seb pushed me in a phone boot across the toilets. The glass door was opaque, so no one could see who was in there.

His hands took off my top and opened my bra. He groaned when he cupped my breasts. “Oh Chérie…” Softly he rubbed my nipples until they hardened.
I unbuttoned his shirt and my hands touched his tanned chest. I felt his heart beating fast. I opened his belt and pants. Seb pulled up my skirt and sat on his knees to take off my panties. His hands cupped my butt again and his tongue licked my clit.
“Oh Seb… please…” My hands tousled his hair while he was driving me crazy. He knew exactly what he was doing, ‘cause I heard him laugh. He slowly slipped a finger inside. And then a second one. I grabbed his shoulders. “Please Seb…”

He stood up and pulled his boxers down. He took a condom and rolled it over his engorged cock. When he picked me up, I wrapped my legs around his waist. With one long push, he entered me. His mouth covered mine and he kissed me hungrily.
Slowly he moved his hips while my hands caressed his chest. He moaned when my fingernails ran over his nipples. “Chérie…”
Our rhythm increased and when we came we cried out each others name.

Seb slowly let me down and kissed me tenderly. “Je t’aime.”
“Seb…”
“I know you’re with Urs. But I can’t help it.” He said while he stroked my cheek.
“We have to get back.” I said while I straightened my clothes. When I wanted to pick up my panties, Seb took them and put them in his pocket.
“A souvenir.” He smiled. He rearranged his clothes as well and opened the door. He looked outside for a second and whispered “The coast is clear.”

When we got back to the table, nobody seemed to suspect anything. I sat down next to Urs and he pulled me close. “I missed you.” He whispered.
I smiled at him, but I felt like a betrayer. How could I cheat on him? I loved him! When I kissed him, I saw Seb looking at us. Damn that man! His sexy smile made my heart race.
“Let’s go home.” Urs whispered. I saw in his eyes what he wanted and it made me feel even worse. I just fucked his best friend! I smiled at him and we said goodbye to the others.

When Seb kissed me on the cheek, he looked intently at me and said. “Thank you for the present.”
I knew I blushed furiously, but Urs didn’t seem to notice.
“Ah well… we all know how much you like champagne.”
“Oui… champagne, strawberries and a beautiful lady in a Jacuzzi… I don’t ask for much.” Seb said and winked at me.
Urs laughed and patted his shoulder. “It seems there are a lot of women around here. You might get lucky.”


Urs took my hand and we walked out. When we stood in the elevator on the way to our flat, Urs pulled me close and kissed me. His hand slipped under my skirt and I saw the surprise on his face when he discovered I wasn’t wearing panties.
“Surprise.” I mumbled.
“Why didn’t you tell me? We would have gone home a long time ago.” He said while his fingers caressed my hotness.
I moaned when his finger slipped inside. His mouth covered mine again and he pushed me against the wall. His hands stroked my breasts through the fabric of my top and I felt his hard manhood pushing my leg.

We stumbled out of the elevator and barely made it to our flat. While Urs opened the door, I unbuttoned his shirt. He kissed me hungrily and closed the door with his foot. Our clothes ended up in the hall. When we were naked, Urs picked me up and I wrapped my legs around his waist. His mouth never left mine while we made our way over to the bedroom. We tumbled on the bed and without a warning, his hard cock slipped inside. I gasped but when he started to move his hips I couldn’t hold back my desire. I dug my nails in his shoulders and he trusted harder. Our tongues were fighting, desperately trying to win the battle. My muscles tensed around his cock and I felt him spilling his hot seed within seconds.

“Mein Gott…” Urs leaned on his elbows, little drops of sweat covering his chest and face. He kissed me tenderly before he slipped out of me. He rolled on his back, pulling me with him. I tried to catch my breath and looked at the man I loved. Yes, I loved him. I loved him so much. And I betrayed him.
“I love you…” I whispered.
Urs kissed my forehead and held me close. “I love you too, sweetie.”
W

Part 2

The next day the guys had a concert. I spend some time with Urs in his dressing room, but half an hour before the show I decided to go and look for my seat. While I walked through the hall, Seb opened the door to this dressing room and stuck his head out. “I need your help.”
“My help? What’s wrong?”
He looked desperate. “Please, come in for a minute.”
When I walked in, he was in his boxers. I saw his semi erect cock. I swallowed hard and looked him in the eyes. “So, what’s the problem?”
He smiled and he pulled me to him. “What do you think?” he said while he kissed me. I tried to fight him, but I couldn’t. When he kissed me, I couldn’t think straight.

His hands slipped under my dress and he pulled my panties down.
“Seb, please…”
“Patience, Chérie.” He softly rubbed my clit.
“No, Seb… I can’t… Oh God!”

While I was protesting he kept stroking me and slipped his fingers in. I couldn’t help myself. That man was just so hot…
“Damn, you!” I whispered and pulled down his boxers. I stroked his cock and it immediately hardened.
“Oh Chérie… Oui, that’s it!” he moaned as I cupped his balls and gently squeezed them.

Seb pulled me towards the couch and sat down. He barely had the time to put on a condom. I straddled him and lead his hardness in. He unzipped my dress and let the top fall down. He opened my bra and threw it away. His mouth sucked my nipples while I was riding him. I felt him sucking harder and harder and knew he was coming.
“Seb!” I screamed when he bit one of my nipples. And that’s when I felt his release.

When he found his breath, he kissed me. “I’m sorry, Chérie. You just turn me on so much!”
“It’s ok.” I got up and wanted to put on my panties.
“Can I keep them?” he asked.
I smiled. “If you keep doing that, I’m gonna end up without anything to wear soon.”
He took my panties and put them in the pocket of the pants he was gonna wear. “I just want to be able to feel them when I’m on stage. And don’t worry about having nothing to wear. I’m taking you shopping one of these days.”


I was seated on Urs’ side of the stage, but had a nice view on Seb. I saw him putting his hand in his pocket during the show and every time he did it, he winked at me. During one of the songs he was in front of me and looked me straight in the eyes. And that’s when it happened. Suddenly I saw his arousal. I looked at him, looked at his pants and back to his face. Seb rolled his eyes and buttoned his jacket to hide it.

I saw Urs grinning and when I caught his gaze he winked. He didn’t know the reason of Seb’s arousal, but he knew the feeling all to well. When he was performing I loved to tease him. I would just sit there and stare at him and once in a while slowly lick my lips. Oh yes, I gave Urs his share of embarrassment a few times.



When we got home, Urs and I made love. Slowly and very tender. I’m so glad I met him. Making love to him was different every time. Sometimes we just torn each others clothes off and did it fast and furious. But other times we made love for hours. Urs was an amazing lover. Very gentle and sweet, very caring and well aware of what he was doing.

Part 3

On one of their days off, David and Carlos went to visit a museum, Urs went for a ride on his motorcycle and Seb and I went shopping. He took me to an exclusive lingerie store.

“Bonjour.” He smiled at the lady behind the counter.
“Can I help you, sir?” she asked blushing.
“I would like to buy my fiancé some lingerie. Is it ok if we look around and try a few things?”
“Of course. If you need any help, let me know.” The woman nodded.

“Take a look around and so will I.” Seb winked at me before he disappeared.
I looked through the lingerie and took a few bra's and panties. Black and white, some plane, some with lace. Suddenly Seb stood beside me. “Come on. I want you to try a few things.”

He lead me to the fitting room and handed me the lingerie he had chosen. “Try it on and show me.” He sat down on a bench in front of one of the rooms, waiting till I would come back.
I sighed, went in and closed the door. I looked at the things he picked.
“You got to be kidding!” I said and yanked the door open again.
Seb smiled. “Please Chérie. I think you will look incredible sexy!”
“Seb, I’m not…”
“Just try it. For me.” He gave me that sexy smile that made me shiver.
“Fine.” I mumbled.
I heard him chuckle when I closed the door again.

The first thing I tried on was a black lace corset. It had a flower design on it. And I had to admit it looked great. It fitted in all the right places and pushed my breasts up a little. They looked bigger and I smiled.
I opened the door and stuck my head out. Seb was the only one there, so I stepped outside.
“Chérie…” he whispered. “You look… amazing!”
“Merci.” I blushed.
Seb stood up and came to me. “Beautiful.” He said while his hands caressed the delicate fabric. “We’ll take it.”
He turned me around and softly pushed me toward the dressing room. “Next, please.”

I got back in, took the corset off and took the next set. It was a black thong with a bra. When I tried it on, I couldn’t believe my eyes. Seb had chosen a bra with half cups. The cups ended just under my nipples. I took the thong and tried it on. I never liked these things and I wasn’t gonna wear them. And if he thought I was gonna show him, he could wait for a long time.

I watched myself in the mirror. Ok, it looked sexy, but this wasn’t me. After a while, someone knocked on the door.
“Chérie?”
“Yes?”
“Are you ok?” Seb asked.
I sighed. “If you think I’m coming out to show you…”
“There is no one around.” He said.
“I’m not coming out, Seb.” I said again.
“Ok. Let me in then.”
“Seb…”
“Please?”
“Ok, ok…” I opened the door to let him in.

Seb closed the door and looked at me. “Mon Dieu…”
I saw he liked it. His eyes darkened and when I look at his pants I saw his cock pushing against the fabric.
“I guess you like it.”
He roughly pulled me in his arms and kissed me. “I love it.”
  
His tongue parted my lips and his hands caressed my back and went to my ass. I felt his arousal pushing my hot spot.
 “Seb…” I whispered.
He pulled back a little and his hands found my breasts. His fingers started to rub my nipples until they got hard. He bent his head and licked one of my nipples. His hands slid down and pushed the thong down. I stepped out of it and Seb immediately slid a finger in my wetness.

I moaned and opened his pants. I pushed them down, together with his boxers and his cock immediately stood up. Seb turned me around so I was facing the mirror. I saw him putting on a condom.
He kept playing with my nipples and then one of his hands slid down. Seb rubbed my clit and softly kissed my neck. One of his fingers entered me. And then a second and a third.
“Oh Seb… Please….”

He kept teasing me until I came. I had to support myself against the wall. While I was still trembling from the orgasm, he lead his cock in. I moaned when he moved. I felt him harden and within seconds he came. The shock of his orgasm surprised him as well.
He pushed me against the wall while he came and we stayed like that until we were both breathing normal again.

“We’ll take this as well.” He whispered afterwards.
I turned around and kissed him. “You are amazing, Seb.”
“So are you, ma Chérie.”

PART 4


When I came back to the hotel, Urs wasn’t there yet. I dropped my bags on the bed and decided to take a shower. The hot water relaxed me, but I couldn’t wash away the guilt I felt. I truly loved Urs, but I couldn’t get Seb out of my mind.

I stepped out of the shower, wrapped a fluffy towel around me and entered the bedroom. My breath caught in my throat when I saw Urs. He held up the lace corset and smiled at me.
“I see you bought me a gift.”
I swallowed. “Y-yes… Ehm… Do you like it?”
He nodded. “Put it on. I can’t wait to see you in it.”

I did what he asked and when I looked at him, I saw that he liked it. His eyes darkened and I saw a familiar bulge appear in his trousers.
“Sweetie… You look so beautiful. So sexy…” He pulled me in his arms. “I didn’t know you had it in you.”
I blushed. “I… I wanted to try something different.”
He kissed me tenderly. “Too bad we agreed to meet the others for diner. But wear this under your dress. I can’t wait to take it off later on.”

He kissed me once more and went to the bathroom to take a shower. Before he closed the door, he turned around again. “Oh… And I sure like the other gift you bought me. You naughty girl.” He winked and I felt my cheeks burn.
If only he knew…


During diner, Urs couldn’t tear his eyes away from me. His hand was resting on mine or on my knee. I knew he was anxious to get back to our room. I met Seb’s gaze and noticed the mischievous glance in his eyes.

When coffee was served, Urs kissed my cheek. “10 more minutes and we’re off.” He whispered.
“Alright you two! Beat it!” David laughed out loud. “It’s bad enough that you can’t keep your hands from each other during diner, but please let me enjoy my coffee.”
Urs stood up and pulled me to my feet. With his arm around my waist, he led me out. “Goodnight, guys!”

I unlocked our door and felt Urs unzipping my dress. His hands were resting on my shoulder, holding the fabric. When I stepped in, he slid the straps of my dress from my shoulders and turned me around so that I was facing him.
“Beautiful.” He whispered.

I slowly unbuttoned his shirt and slid it off his shoulders. My hands caressed his broad chest and wandered to his pants. I unzipped it and pushed it down together with his boxers. His hard cock proudly stood up.

Urs took me in his arms and kissed me. We stood there for a long time, just enjoying each others kisses and the heath of our bodies. After a while he removed my corset, picked me up and carried me to the bed.
We made love all through the night. And once again I realised that this was the man I loved with all my heart. The only man I wanted to spend the rest of my with.

Part 5

It was a long flight from Los Angeles to London. Most people were asleep, but I couldn’t. I wasn’t that fond of flying, so long flights gave me the creeps.

Eventually I got up, took my purse and walked over to the bathroom. I did what I had to do and when I opened the door, I was pushed back in.
“What the… Seb!”
“Hi Chérie.” He smiled.
“Are you crazy? Urs is out there.” I hissed.
Seb took me in his arms. “He’s fast asleep. And I got bored.”
“But…”
He silenced me with a breathtaking kiss. I felt my knees tremble and put my arms around his neck.

I unbuttoned his shirt and my hands caressed his broad chest and played with his chest hair. Seb took off my t-shirt and unzipped my pants. I stepped out of them while Seb removed his own pants and boxers. I took off my bra and panties and saw Seb putting on a condom.

He took me in his arms again and lifted me up. I put my legs around his waist and we kissed hungrily. His hardness slipped in and we reached our climax in no time.
Afterwards we stood there, just kissing each other for a while.

“I wish we could spend the night together.” Seb said. He softly stroked my cheek and I saw the love in his eyes. “Just once. I want to make love to you all night long instead of a quickie.”
I swallowed. What was I supposed to do? I loved Urs, but I loved Seb as well.
“We can’t, Seb.” I whispered.

He kissed me tenderly before he got dressed again. Seb slipped out while I was getting dressed. I took a small bottle of perfume out of my purse and put some on. If Urs would notice I was smelling like Seb, we would be so dead.

Finally I made my way back to my seat. When I passed Seb, he smiled at me. I sat down next to Urs and snuggled up to him. He put his arms around me and held me close.
“Ich liebe dich.” Urs whispered sleepily.
I nuzzled even closer when I heard those sweet words. “I love you too, Urs.” And I meant it. I did love him!

Part 6

The guys were back on tour. Just a few more weeks and they would finally take a break.
One day, I watched the sound check behind the scenes. When I returned to the dressing room, I took a wrong turn. I walked through the long and dark halls and realised I was lost. Just when I decided to go back, I sensed a presence behind me. A hand gently settled on my hip. My heart was beating like crazy. I felt a hard bulge nestled against my bottom. The hand moved from my hip to my belly and that’s when I recognised the watch. “Seb!”

He kissed my neck. “Bonjour Chérie.” His hand curved around my midriff, just beneath my breasts.
“Don’t worry, the others are gone.” He whispered. His arms tightened and held me closer against his body and his erection.

His hand slipped under my shirt and pushed my bra aside. He cupped my breast and gently fondled my nipple. The palm of his other hand lay flat on my pubis.
“Seb, we can’t…”
He rolled my nipple between his finger and thumb and I felt my desire rise. He unbuttoned my blouse and fondled my now bare nipple, tugging it and making it harder and harder.

Seb kissed the side of my neck again. It felt so good. I felt my knees buckle and heard him laugh. He turned me around and backed me up against the wall. He winked and bent down to kiss my breasts. His lips sucked my nipples and I gasped. “God, Seb…”
His tongue flicked my nipples again and again.

He hiked up my skirt and caressed my bottom. “You are wearing my present.” He said when he felt the string. The tips of his fingers brushed my hot spot but he didn’t go any further. I couldn’t take it anymore and kissed him hard. He eagerly opened his lips and we kissed frantically for a while.

I felt his fingers on my thigh and he shoved the fabric aside. His fingers dipped into my slippery cleft. I moved my hips. I wanted more and I wanted it now.
“What the hell are you waiting for? I want you inside me! Now!”

Seb laughed out loud. “That’s my girl!”
He opened his belt and unzipped his pants. I lifted my leg and wrapped it around him. He positioned himself at my entrance and massaged my breasts with one hand. He rubbed himself against me, teasing me with the top of his cock. He pushed inside me and jerked his hips.
I gasped and buried my face in his neck. “Oh Seb…” I felt my climax building. Seb lifted me up and jammed me up and down his hard shaft.

I climaxed and he kissed me, preventing me to scream. He thrust hard again. His movements became more ragged, rising to climax. Seb tightened his grip on my buttocks and held me down on his hardness. I felt him reaching his climax as well.

We stood there, trying to catch our breath. Seb slowly put me on my feet and kissed me tenderly. “You know that I love you.”
“And you know that I love Urs.” I said, while I straightened my clothes.
“Do you? Do you really love him?” he asked.
“Yes, Seb. I do. I love him more then anything.” And I meant it.
He raised his eyebrows. “Then why are you here with me?”
I sighed and starred at my feet. “I don’t know.” I turned around and started to walk away. I didn’t want him to see my tears. But then he grabbed my arm and pulled me back into his embrace.
“I’m sorry, Chérie. I shouldn’t have said that. I know you love him. And what we have is…”
“Lust.” I whispered.
Seb kissed my forehead. “Maybe.”

Part 7

The tour was over and all the guys were going home. Urs and I were supposed to go to Switserland, but the day before we left, the flu hit me. I had a fever and everything was hurting. I could barely swallow.
I insisted that Urs went home. It was only for a week and I just wanted to stay in bed and sleep.

“Sweetie… I’m going now.” Urs said, softly caressing my cheek.
I nodded. I could hardly open my eyes.
“I hate to leave you like this. Maybe I should stay.”
“I’ll be fine… Go home. I don’t want you to catch it.” I whispered.
“Do you need anything?” he asked.
I shook my head. I couldn’t think straight. I just wanted to sleep.
Urs tenderly kissed my forehead. “I’ll call you tonight. And I’ll keep my mobile close so that you can call me. I’ll be back in no time if you need me.”


By the end of the week I was back on my feet. I was cleaning up when the doorbell rang. When I opened the door I starred into a pair of green eyes. “Seb!”
“Bonsoir Chérie. Missed me?” He pulled me in his arms and kissed me hungrily. “I sure missed you.”
“Seb…”
He smiled. “I know that Urs won’t be home before tomorrow. So… How about we go out to dinner?”
“I don’t know, Seb.”
“Chérie… Please… Let us spend the night together. It’s the only chance we will ever have.” He gently stroked my cheek and I saw the love in his eyes.
I nodded and 10 minutes later we were at a small Italian restaurant.

It was a great evening. Seb and I talked and laughed as old friends, but there was still a certain tension between us.
After coffee, we walked out hand in hand.
“Your place or mine?” Seb asked.
“Yours.” I whispered.


Seb opened the door for me and I walked in. My heart was beating like crazy. What was I doing? I loved Urs! And here I was… With one of his best friends.

Seb saw the doubts in my eyes. “Chérie, don’t be sorry. We love each other. But it’s just not possible. Let us enjoy this night together.” He gently pulled me in his arms and kissed me. I responded to his kiss and felt how he lifted me up and carried me to the bedroom.

He put me on my feet in front of the bed. His fingers slowly unbuttoned my shirt and pushed it of my shoulders. His warm hands caressed my arms and then he cupped my face. “Je t’aime.” He whispered before he kissed me. His tongue parted my lips and I surrendered to his soft touch.

I unbuttoned his shirt and felt him opening my bra. He threw it on the floor followed by his shirt. Seb took me back in his arms and I felt his chest hair tickling my breasts. My hands slowly stroked his back. Seb pulled back a little and unzipped my pants. In one swift move he pushed them down, together with my panties. He kneeled down and I felt his hot breath on my clit. His hands cupped my bottom and his tongue slowly licked my hot spot. I grabbed his shoulders to support myself. One of his fingers entered me and I gasped. He slowly fucked me with his finger while he was still licking my clit. A second finger entered me.
“Please Seb…” I whispered.

Finally he stood up again, his eyes dark with desire. He got rid of his pants while I lay down on the bed. Seb joined me and his hands found my breasts. He softly pinched my nipples, causing me to moan. Seb smiled and brought his mouth to one of my nipples. He softly sucked and bit it.

My hand found his hardness and I stroked it. Seb took a condom from the nightstand and put it on. He positioned himself between my legs. His cock slowly entered me while he looked deep into my eyes.
“Seb…”

He moved his hips while I wrapped my legs around him. Slowly we build up our rhythm. Seb’s hand rubbed my clit. My hands grabbed his shoulders and I felt I was reaching my climax.
“Come to me, Chérie…”
I let myself ago and within seconds, Seb followed. He collapsed on top of me. After a while he rolled off me and took me in his arms.

Suddenly I couldn’t hold back my tears. Seb held me tight, softly rubbing my back. “It’s ok, Chérie. I understand.”
“I love him, Seb.”
“I know.” He kissed me tenderly. “I know we will never be together, but…”

We spend the night together and yes, we made love a few more times. But we both knew I belonged to Urs. Me… and my heart.


Part 8

After my night with Seb we had breakfast together before I returned home. I cleaned up the house to prevent myself from going crazy. It was late afternoon when I heard the front door open and close again.

When Urs walked in, my heart jumped up and once again I realised how much I loved him.
“Hi sweetheart. Missed me?”
I buried myself in his arms, holding him close and inhaling his scent. “Yes.” I murmured. “I missed you so much.”

Urs kissed me gently and his hands slipped under my t-shirt. I put my hands around his neck and played with his hair. It was like time stood still and we were the only two people in this world. After a while Urs swept me in his arms and carried me to the bedroom. We slowly undressed each other and lay down on the bed. Urs leaned on his elbow and tucked my hair behind my ear before he kissed my forehead.
“Urs…” I whispered.
“Shh…” He kissed my brow. “I’m gonna kiss you all over your body. From here…” He kissed my cheeks. “… all the way to your toes and back again. And you lay quiet and enjoy.”

I smiled at him. I knew what I was in for and didn’t mind at all!
Urs kissed my chin and my jaw line. He went further down to my neck, shoulders and my breasts. For a minute his mouth lingered on my nipples. But when he heard me moan, he went down to my belly, my hips and my thighs. He kissed my knee, my ankle, my foot and even my toe before he came back up on the other side.

His kisses were sweet, soft and tender. He didn’t really touch me but the feeling of his breath over my body was overwhelming. My body was trembling with anticipation and my mind was out of this world.

He gave me everything he had, everything he was. He gave me love and tenderness. When he came back to my mouth, he kissed me tenderly and positioned himself between my legs.
“I love you so much, sweetie.” He said and looked me in the eyes.

With one long stroke he entered me. I immediately wrapped my legs around him, desperately pulling him closer. We kissed franticly while we worked towards our climax. And when we finally came, we were both exhausted. Exhausted but happy.

We lay close together, our arms around each other, legs intertwined.
“Marry me.” Urs whispered.
I looked up. “What?”
“Marry me.” He repeated.
I couldn’t believe my ears. “Urs… But… I thought you didn’t want to get married.”
He smiled. “When I was away I realised how much I missed you.”
“It was only a week.”
“Exactly. And that’s when I realised I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you. So, what do you say? Will you marry me?” He asked, softly stroking my cheek.
I looked in his eyes and saw his love for me. “Yes, I’ll marry you.” I whispered.


I remember the look in Seb’s eyes when we told the guys we were getting married. He realised it was over between us.
Seb came to our wedding. With his new girlfriend. I saw he was happy. But there was still a certain sadness in his eyes.

I never cheated on Urs again. The day he asked me to marry him, I realised once again how much I loved him and that we belonged together. I made a choice. And it was the right one.





Alright ladies... Someone asked me to write an alternative ending. I found it difficult 'cause I don't want to hurt the guys!

So... small warning... This chapter contains violence...

I don't mean to offend anyone or hurt the guys... Well, you know...



Alternative ending

The next morning Seb and I said goodbye. Well, that was an understatement I guess… While we were waiting for the elevator, we were making out. And that’s when it happened.
The lift doors opened and a cheery voice said “Hi Seb!” And then “Oh my God…”

I closed my eyes. This couldn’t be happening. There he was… the man I loved… Urs…
I saw the disbelief in his eyes. “Urs…” I stammered.
“No… You bastard!” His fist hit Seb’s jaw.

“Urs! Don’t!” I screamed.
Urs grabbed Seb by his collar and pushed him against the wall. “How could you Seb! You know how much I love her! But you just had to have her, didn’t you? I can’t believe this!”
Seb tried to free himself. “Urs…”
“Did you sleep with her? Did you?!” he angrily asked.
Seb swallowed. “Oui.”
Urs fist hit Seb’s nose again. I heard it cracking and the blood fell on his shirt.
“Urs!” I yelled.

He kept hitting Seb and the two of them fell on the floor. Seb was desperately trying to defend himself, but Urs was too strong. He sat on top of Seb and pinned him to the floor.
“I can’t believe you! I thought you were a friend!”
I touched his arm. “Urs, please…”
He turned around and looked angrily at me. “And you… I thought you loved me…”
“I do, Urs! I love you very much!” Tears streamed down my cheeks.

Urs stood up. He looked me in the eyes and I saw his heart breaking. “Why did you sleep with him?”
“I don’t know…” I whispered.
Seb tried to get up, but Urs kicked him in his stomach and he fell down again.
“Stop it!” I yelled. “Please!”

He took a deep breath and pushed me towards Seb. “Good luck, you two.”
Urs turned around, walked to the elevator and the doors closed before I could get to him.
“No! Urs! Please!” I tried to stop him, crying bitter tears.
But he didn’t listen. He disappeared out of my life.


Seb and I lived together for a while, but it was no use. I couldn’t forget Urs. Seb tried to talk to him, I tried to, I wrote him letters… But he didn’t listen. It was over.

The relationship between Seb and Urs was a disaster. Urs avoided Seb as much as he could. They even swapped places on stage. Urs didn’t want to sit or stand next to him. He couldn’t bear to look at him.

And that’s when I decided I had to leave. I left Seb, I walked away from Il Divo and everything around them. Yes, I still love Urs and I miss him like crazy. But I know it was my own fault and that what I did was unforgivable. And with that guilt I have to live for the rest of my life.