Sebastien closed the door behind him quietly, sighing as he placed his forehead against her door. He just needed to breath for a minute. He closed his eyes as a tear streamed down his face, he knew it was over, he couldn't get her back, and it was eating him up alive.

Sebastien ran his hands through his thick hair as he stepped out of the hallway making his way toward the door. He couldn't believe this was all happening, everything seemed like deja vu. He was hoping that he would never have to go through this again, but of course that was an impossibility. He blinked his eyes in a shock of the events that occured, was this all realy happening? It all seemed like a dream, and he just wanted to wake up.
Sebastien closed the front door behind him, only to see Urs across from him, laying against the wall tanned color wall with his arms crossed. Urs looked up at him after he heard the door shut, eager to know what was the knews. He then could read Sebastien's body language and the look in his eyes. This didn't seem good. He eyes were red, looked as if he were crying, and he had dark circles under his eyes. Urs then knew this wouldn't be good, but was still praying that he was wrong.

" How did it go?" Urs asked in concern as he uncrossed his arms walking closer to Sebastien. His ear length hair bouncing as he walked.

" Not so well." Sebastien replied un happily, looking down at the floor, placing his hands in his front pockets. " It was nice meeting you Urs, but, I have to go." He replied not making eye contact as he made his way down the hall and towards the elevator.

Urs' eyes followed Sebastien. He was wondering if he should help him, or just let him be. His heart was acheing for Sebastien, Urs knew that Sebastien deserved better than that. The couple times he met Sebastien he could tell that he was a good guy and that Sebastien would never dare to hurt anyone he cared for, especially Alex.

" Sebastien, wait." Urs replied as he followed Sebastien towards the elevator.

Sebastien looked up at Urs after he pushed the button. He just wanted to go home, the only thing he was good for was being a parent. And the only person who cared for him was Katie.

" I know she can be stubburn at times, but, I think you should be more persistant." Urs replied after reaching Sebastien. He wanted to help him.

" I think I'm done Urs." Sebastien replied quietly as he looked up at the elevator, eagerly waiting for the doors to open.

" Why are you giving up so easily?" Urs asked.

Sebastien didn't say anything, he exhaled as he looked down at the floor, trying to find the answer. Sebastien didn't know what the use of keep going at Alex if she wouldn't listen to him. If she wouldn't listen to him the first time, what made him think she was going to listen to him the second time?

" I guess she doesn't feel the same way that I do." Sebastien shrugged, looking back up at the elevator.

" Listen Sebastien," Urs placed his hand on Sebastien's shoulder. " I'm willing to help you, but I can't if you don't tell me what I can do."

The bell of the elevator was heard, and the doors opened just as Sebastien was hoping. Sebastien took a glance at Urs for a second before stepping into the elevator, and pressing the button that he desired.

" Nothing, Urs. All of it has been done." Sebastien replied quietly as he took one final glance at Urs before the doors came together.

* * * *

Alex sat up from her tear soaked pillow, she wanted to make sure Sebastien was gone. She wiped her continueing tears away from her blushed cheeks. She knew what Sebastien did was wrong, but she wanted him so badly. What he just did just that few minutes ago, was the most incredible feeling she had ever felt. His fingers against her skin, his lips on hers, his chest against hers, all that she longed for and she loved it. She knew it was wrong for her to think this way after all that has happened,but, maybe she was making a mistake, maybe she should take him back. Everyone makes mistakes. "No! It was his mistake! He did this to me." She thought to herself.

After a few moments of resting, and clearing all the thoughts in her head, she decided to head for the shower. She hadn't bathed since last night, and she felt filthy. She figured that the shower would do her good, and it would help her think more clearly and get her thoughts straight. As she grabbed her robe from the closet and headed for her bathroom she heard her cell ring. She stopped into the bathroom hoping that it wasn't Sebastien, she didn't want to talk to him after what happened. After fighting in her head of whether to go look at her cell and see who it was, she thought it would do no harm.

She headed back toward the bed and grabbed her phone off the night stand. She read the ID, and a frown grew on her face. She had rather talk to Sebastien then her.

" Hello?" She flipped her phone up reluctantly.

" What did he do?!"

" Who?"

" Sebastien! Don't act stupid! What did he do?!" She asked again.

" Mom, how do you know about this?" Alex asked as she sat on the bed. Irritated at her moms tone with her.

" I have connections!" Her mom raised her voice. " Now I'm going to ask you again: what did he do?!"

" You know mom, I'm going to take a shower, I will talk to you later!" Alex replied as she flipped her phone shut and threw it on the bed. No sooner, the phone started to ring again.

She didn't want to tell her mom anything. Everytime she would, her mom would just tell her that she didn't need a man, and that she was better off. Alex knew that her mom didn't care how Alex felt, just in what she did. And that's what made Alex upsett about her mother the most. As long as Alex did something right, she didn't care anything else about her.

Alex tried to push the thoughts of her mom in the back of her mind as she headed back to her shower, shutting the door behind her, and turning on the focet to the hot steamy water. She stripped her bedroom wear down to the floor. She could see the steam rising from the water and into the bathroom, and she knew that the water was perfect, it was exactly what she needed.

She stepped into the nice hot pouring water and let it soak into her skin, she could feel her tensed muscles start to loosen and releasing any sadness or anger they were holding. She stood under the running water, making sure her hair was soaked before she would apply the shampoo, but imediatly her thoughts were traced to Sebastien again, and everything that had happened between them was starting to take placed in her head again. She tried to hold back the tears that were fighting against her eyes, but failed as she sank to the floor, placing her head in her hands. All the sadness and rage she tried to hold inside of her was finally making its way out.

She let the water trick down her bare back and shoulders as she continued to lay on her knees bareing her face inside her hands. She wanted to be loved so much,but, she couldn't even recieve that, God truly hated her. All she wanted was to be held and comfortated at that exact moment.

She closed her eyes as she imagined Sebastien stepping into the shower, placing his arms around her helping her up, and holding her. She imagined Sebastien holding her as she continued to cry, the water running down both of their bare bodies. Alex wrapped her arms around herself as she continued to imagine Sebastien being there with her. She wanted to feel his bare skin on hers, his arms holding her, and comforting her. She wanted to taste his lips again, she wanted to run her hands through his hair as Sebastien would continue what he started earlier and then finally finishing it.

Alex stood up from the floor, whiping the tears away from her face again. She came to the conclusion that there was no men for her, and she obviously was never meant to be with another man again.