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Urs took the book Roberta gave him home. Although he had absolutely no intention whatsoever of reading it. Why would he want to? What did this author know about having sex during pregnancy? Probably nothing at all. So he was hardly going to read it and believe it all. Especially when some…some woman had probably made it all up. Had probably made every last word up. So no he wasn’t going to read it. He decided to hide the ‘’never to be read’’ book with his motorbikes. He hid it actually under a motorbike manual.
After Seb and Roberta’s wedding Urs had moved in with Fara. Well, Fara was his flatmate. Moving in met having sex with and he and Fara most definitely weren’t. No way. Not while she was pregnant. Afterwards? Well, he’d have to see. Then Fara would be the mother of his child. Could he have sex with her then? Until it happened he didn’t know if he could face it. She would be a Mother. He would be a Father. Respectable. How ever did his parents get around to having more than one child he’d never understand. He hadn’t always felt this way. Just since Fara had told him she was pregnant with his child. Then he had to keep reminding himself - that it was wrong to want Fara while she was pregnant. OK, she wasn’t showing yet but it wouldn’t be too long until she was. No. No Urs couldn’t have sex with a pregnant woman. It wasn’t right. It didn’t feel right. It was wrong. Wrong. Completely wrong. Even if he was immensely sexually attracted to Fara. So much that he had to sit on his hands in order to keep them to himself. Every morning, every night even he had a shower, trying to cool his desire for her. It never worked for he kept picturing her in his head, remembering the noises she made during orgasm. How she tasted. How her eyes dilated with passion and her skin flushed with it. Remembering how her nipples looked. God it made him so hard. So horny. So very, very turned on. The cold shower never worked. Only him wanking worked. And my god he was getting sick of doing it himself each and every time. Not, that he was tempted to cheat. That thought never crossed his mind. In the past he had been cheated on and knew just how bad it felt to do it to someone else, especially to Fara. He knew that would drive her away. During one sex session he had remembered her laughing, ’Don’t ever cheat on me or you’ll never have me again.’
‘I wouldn’t.’ he had shook his head.
‘You might be tempted, some time thought.’ she had tried.
‘Not when I’m with you.’ he had insisted.
‘But how can you say that? How can you so be sure?’
‘I just am.’ he had shrugged.
‘Not good enough.’ Fara had shook her head.
‘The way I feel about you, this feeling. Its forever.’
‘Nothing lasts forever.’ she had laughed.
‘This does.’ Urs had insisted.
‘Oh yeah? And this? What is ‘’this’’ then?’ she had asked, doing quotation marks around the ‘’this’’.
‘Me…loving you.’ Urs had replied, making Fara stare open mouthed at him.
‘Yeah, right.’ she had finally laughed, thinking he was joking.
‘I mean it. I love you Fara.’ he had said, sounding serious.
‘Right…OK…tha…thanks.’ she had stopped laughing now.
But she still hadn’t said it back. Hadn’t said ‘I love you Urs.’ which had upset Urs. Disappointed him. Sure he could tell she loved him. He could feel it. But it would have been nice if she had voiced the feeling too. But no. Oh well. One day there would come a day when she finally would. Not at the rate Urs was going though. Pushing her away by refusing to sleep with her. Refusing to even let her see to herself in a sexual way.

It was Urs and Fara’s wedding the next day. So tonight Seb, David and Carlos were around Urs’ to celebrate ‘’his last night of freedom’’ so Seb had laughed. They were sat around, drinking, although not alcohol because it was Urs’ home and he refused to stock alcohol, so it was just Carlos’ favourite drink Coke they were drinking, oh, and tea. Urs liked drinking cups of tea. Roberta had introduced him and Seb to tea drinking.
Telling jokes. Well, Carlos was telling the jokes. The ruder the better, making everyone blush and occasionally confusing Urs who didn’t completely understand every joke. Then Seb decided it was confession time.
‘Right, confession time.’ he smiled at them.
‘Oh…?’ David asked.
‘It’s a game. A simple game. You each have to tell one secret.’ Seb told them.
‘You go first then.’ Carlos smiled.
‘OK.’ Seb nodded, and thought for a moment, ‘Roberta and I…we’re very much into bondage.’
‘Bondage?’ David asked before Urs could.
‘Bondage.’ Seb nodded.
‘Meaning…?’ Carlos asked.
‘Blindfolds. Being tied up.’ Seb explained to a confused looking Urs.
‘Should try that some time…’ Carlos winked.
‘I’m sure Cydalia would love that!’ Seb laughed, ‘right, you’re next Carlos old man.’
‘Oi! Less of the old man!’ Carlos laughed, ‘right..’ he then thought for a moment, ‘this isn’t a sexual thing…’
‘Oh…’ Seb complained, losing interested temporarily.
‘Cydalia. She doesn’t work at our record company.’ Carlos carried on with his confession.
‘What does she do then…?’ Urs asked.
‘She’s an author. Of sexual novels.’
‘Any good…?’ Seb asked, suddenly interested again.
‘We regularly test out various…scenes.’ Carlos winked.
‘Whey-hey!’ Seb laughed, winking back, ‘David! Your turn.’
‘OK.’ David nodded, ‘I would still be with Laura no matter what.’
‘Meaning…?’ Urs asked.
‘Male, or female. I love her all the same.’
‘So if Laura had never had her sex change…’ said Carlos.
‘Doesn’t make any difference. I love Laura for who she is, not for what she is.’ David shrugged.
‘True love.’ Urs realised.
‘Yes.’ David nodded, smiling.
‘Good for you mate. Good for you.’ Urs hugged his friend, ‘well.’ he then coughed, ‘I guess its my confession time…’
‘Go on…?’ Seb asked.
‘First I’ve a question for you Seb.’ Urs told him.
‘Go on…?’ Seb repeated.
‘Do you and Roberta still…’ Urs embarrassingly coughed, ‘even though she’s…pregnant?’ he finished.
‘What? Have sex?’ Seb asked.
Urs nodded.
‘God yes!’ Seb laughed in reply.
‘But she’s…having your baby…’
‘To me, that make Rob even MORE sexy.’ Seb emphasised the word, ‘’more’’’, smiling a big smile.
‘Right…OK.’ mumbled Urs at this.
‘Why…? don’t you and Fara…?’ Seb then asked.
‘God no!’ Urs shook his head.
‘Why ever not…?’
‘I…I…’
‘Does she turn you off?’ Seb probed his friend.
‘No….’
‘Then…?’ Seb asked.
‘Fara, being pregnant, is making me…more horny for her.’ Urs eventually confessed.
‘Then why aren’t you….?’
‘I’m afraid.’ Urs admitted, shrugging.
‘Of…?’ Carlos asked now.
‘Of…’ Urs sighed, ‘of hurting Fara… and the baby.’ he sighed again.
‘Unless you’re constantly slamming Fara against the wall stomach first during sex she and the baby are pretty resilient.’ Seb told him.
‘Really…?’ Urs asked, sounding quite amazed at this.
‘Really.’ Seb nodded in confirmation.
‘I mean…Roberta did give me this book…’
‘Oh yes?’ David now asked.
‘Called…’ Urs tried to remember the book title, ‘Continuing sex during pregnancy.’
‘Good book.’ Seb nodded, smiling.
‘You’ve…read it?’ Urs asked him in surprise.
‘I’ll confess, I was like you, at first, refusing to sleep with Rob until she made me read that book.’ Seb admitted.
‘And…it helped?’ Urs asked.
‘It explains everything you need to know, and a whole lot more.’ Seb nodded.
‘So I should….’ mumbled Urs.
‘Read it? Most definitely.’ he was told.
‘Ok…Ok. I’ll…I’ll give it a try.’ Urs finally nodded in deciding.
‘Good man.’ Seb patted his shoulder.
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