Chapter 15

Now it was time to tell the kids about us, I felt a bit nervous and Urs could see that so he took my hand under the table and squeezed it.

Kids, I have something to tell you, he said during dessert.

What? You are not quitting the band? Said Lucas.

Haha, no Lucas. I’m not quitting Il Divo, we still have contract for at least 3 years.

Good, Lucas said and breathed out. Cuz I love going out on tour with you and the uncles.

What were you going to tell us uncle, Alicia asked.

Well, you know that after your mums death I haven’t been dating much. Just Silvia, and now I have fallen in love...

NOT with Silvia?, asked Linus with big eyes.

No, (all the kids breathed out in relief when he said that). But in Anna.

Anna? Everybody said at the same time. But how? When? How long? Came all the questions.

Well it has grown with the time; we took the first step 3 weeks ago.

Why didn’t you tell us before?, asked Nela.

Well, sweetie we wanted to see if the feelings were true and if it would last. And we think it will, I said and all the kids flew at my arms really happy.

Now everything was easier, we didn’t need to hide and we could kiss whenever we wanted. Everything seemed perfect but what I didn’t know was that back in Switzerland an envious woman was doing everything is her powers to find secrets about my past.

After two weeks I moved in to Urs bedroom and it felt so good being so close to him and the kids. Markus had decided to move up to England with the girls as he had been offered a job at the BMG office by Simon and the girls would get a good education in London’s top schools.
I had worked with the family for almost a year (the time had flown by really fast) and the kids and Urs decided to surprise me with a dinner to celebrate having me there. As Urs would be gone for that day and my birthday.
Urs had bought me a new red dress and as we walked down I could see that almost everyone had dressed up.

You look so beautiful everyone, I said as I received a hug from all of them.

After the main meal Lucia came up to me and handed me a present, it was a small box.
As I opened it I saw that it was a gold heart shaped necklace with a picture of the children engraved. I got tears in my eyes, it was so beautiful.

Gosh, children. This was the most beautiful present I have ever gotten.

You are the best present we have gotten, said Lucia and gave me a hug.

I hope you will stay in our family forever Anna, said Lucas who was hugging me too now.

Thank you so much, I love you all.

I saw Urs looking at me with a proud look; he took my hand and kissed it.
During dessert he bent over and whispered in my ear for the first time: I love you!
I got taken by surprise and looked at him. He just gave me a smile.

We later said goodnight to the kids and headed back to our room. As he closed the door and then turned around to me, I just said:
I Love you too.

Everything seemed so perfect now but everything was about to change....

Chapter 16

One day when I was home playing on the piano I got a call from Urs that got me a bit confused. First he sounded a bit strange, he said he wanted to speak with me the moment he came home, he was going to come home earlier and then he didn’t say he loved me before hanging up like he always did. He must have had a bad day I thought and didn’t dread about it anymore.

I was in our bedroom when he came home hanging all our clean clothes in the closet. When I turned around I jumped as I had not heard him come in. He sat on the bed looking strangely at me.

Oh you scared me there honey, I said walking towards him, sitting down and gave him a kiss that he didn’t respond. Is there something wrong?

You can say that, can you explain this? He said giving me a picture of me at the club I used to work at. I was dancing in the picture and only wearing a bra and hot pants.

Where? How did you get this?

Is it true Anna? Are you a stripper?

NO, no... I used to work as a dancer before, but I promise you... I haven’t done it since I started working for you. And I was NOT a stripper!

What’s the difference? Dancer... stripper... you weren’t wearing any clothes!!! I don’t know if I can have a stripper raising my children.

My heart broke right there, I couldn’t believe he had said that.
We both sat quiet for a while and had tears running down.

So this is it? I managed to ask after a while.

I just can’t.....

Its ok, I understand, I said grabbing my purse and running out of the house.

At first I didn’t know where to go or do, so I checked in to a hotel and called my friend Dalia who was in Cambridge. I cried myself to sleep that night.

Chapter 17

The following day I returned to the house when I knew no one would be home and packed all my belongings. I left each of them a goodbye letter, I had decided to leave London and move up to Cambridge where my friend was going to try to make me forget about Urs. That night after Urs had tucked in the sad kids he found his letter and read it:

”Urs,
I’m so sorry for everything that I did. I wanted to tell you so many times but I was ashamed. I wanted it to stay in the past. When I met you, why whole life changed to the better, and I didn’t want to destroy it. I know it’s a bit selfish of me.
I’m so sorry if I have ruined your life.
My heart will always belong to you
// Anna
Ps. Please let me keep in touch with the kids, I won’t be living in London but I hope I can call them and maybe see them someday. I beg you!"

The children were devastated that I had left and I could tell as I spoke to them just a few days after I have gone. I tore my heart hearing them being this sad:

But Anna how will me manage without you? Asked Linus

Sweetie I will always be there for all of you! You can call me whenever you want and I will come down to visit you when I can!

We love you Anna, we want you back, said a crying Lucia.

Honey, I can’t... I love you too and you all will always have a big place in my heart. Don’t forget that!

I was really happy that Urs decided to let me have contact with the kids. I had a hard time forgetting what had happened, I cried almost every night. Luckily I had Dalia there and also, Bekka, Lydia and Angela called me to support me and see how I was.
After one month of just staying in bed not doing much, Dalia got me a job at a kindergarten and I even found myself a small flat near my job.
One day at work I felt myself getting a bit dizzy and I felt sick, I thought that one of the kids had passed on something.
But after 2 days of feeling awful I decided to see a doctor so I could get some medicine. After a lot of tests he called me back for the results at his office.

Well miss Huhle, when was the last time you had you period?

Hmm, don’t know. It has never been regular so I haven’t payed so much attention to be honest. But what does my period has to do with me being sick?

Well Miss Huhle, according to the test you are almost 2 months pregnant...
My jaw fell...

Pregnant, how could I be pregnant? Well yes I know how babies are made, but we had always been so careful... hmm... Well there was the last time we made love just before everything happened when we forgot, but... No how could this happen? What was I going to do?

I talked with Dalia who told me the options, I could keep it or I could get rid of it, but that would have be done soon. I was against abortion but could I manage being a single mother? I put my hand on my belly and stroked it, in there were the result of the love I and Urs had, I could not get rid of it. This was something that would remind me of the best year of my life. I decided I would keep it but wouldn’t tell Urs about it, I didn’t want to ruin his life more than I had done.

Chapter 18

I continued working at the kindergarten and my morning sickness started to get better as they became night sickness instead. I called the kids at least once a week and they told me they had a new nanny, a young girl who wanted to make some extra money for her studies. When 5 months had passed since I left London I decided it was time to see the kids again, I missed them too much, but I was a bit afraid what they would say about me being pregnant, cuz I was showing now.

I met all the 5 kids at a Hyde Park where we had a picnic and the children told me all about what had happened to them. They were all thrilled about me being pregnant, though I saw Lucia getting a bit jealous but I assured her that she would always be my little special girl. I was so glad that they didn’t ask many questions about the baby’s father or things like that. I stayed in London that night at Bekka´s apartment that she lent me as she was away with Seb in Paris. I got a strange call that night, it was Urs. He wanted to see me the next day for coffee. I felt a bit strange but agreed to see him.

As I entered starbucks I saw him already sitting there, on time as usual or if I knew him well he had been there for at least 10 minutes early. He looked as good as before or even better. I took one deep breath before going over to him.

Hi, he said standing up as he saw me approaching him.

Eh, hi I said sitting down.

I’m so glad that you could come!

Well it’s the last thing I could do. How are you?

I’m fine, just fine. I guess I don’t need to ask you how you are, he said looking at my big abdomen. The kids told me you were pregnant... So I thought... well... maybe... that I... I maybe was...

The father?

Yes!

Oh no, I’m just in the 3rd month, so it’s quite impossible, I lied.

Oh, he said a bit disappointed. But your abdomen looks so big so I thought that...

Ah, no well I guess I have gained a lot of weight. I know I look like a hippo, I said laughing trying to lighten up the tension.

No you don’t. You are glowing and you look wonderful. Pregnancy suits you! The daddy is a very lucky man!

Eh, thanks, but the dad is not in the picture anymore, I said looking down trying to find something to change the subject. So I heard you have a new nanny!

Yes, Lisa... she’s good, gets along with the kids but they don’t love her like they do you!

We talked for a few minutes more then I said I had another appointment, but I lied. I just couldn’t be there with him any longer, it hurt too much to be with him there, I still had strong feelings for him. I returned to Cambridge later that day.

The four months went quickly and one morning when I was home watering my flowers I felt a strong pain in my abdomen, and a few minutes after I felt my trousers getting wet and warn. My water had broke. I called a taxi and called Dalia to tell her.

Chapter 19

What I didn’t know as I was on the way to the hospital that at that moment Dalia was doing something behind my back. She called Urs.

Urs Buhler here!

Hi Urs, you don’t know me but I’m Anna’s friend Dalia!

Oh hi, I have heard a lot about you! Has something happened?

Well Anna is on her way to the hospital as we speak.

WHAT? What has happened? Is she ok? How about her baby?

That it, she’s having the baby now!

NOW!!?? Isn’t it to early, she still has 2 months left.

No Urs, it’s just the right time. 9 months has passed.

But that means that... that... I...

Yes Urs!

Ok I’m on my way!

Hurry!

He ended the call and called Alicia to his office!

You called me uncle?

Look Alicia, I have to leave now and I need you to take care of your sister and cousins for me! Lisa will be here tomorrow morning and your dad is coming back in the evening!

Where are you going?

I’m going to Cambridge, to Anna!

Ok, don´t worry I´ll take care of them... tell her we love her!

I will, and thank you so much he said running to his room to pick up his coat and something special he had hidden in his room and left to the train station.

When I arrived at the hospital the midwife checked on me and saw that I wasn’t fully dilated, I had a long night in front of me. Dalia came later to keep me company as I felt contractions coming time to time. After 4 hours I felt tired, I just wanted the baby out of me and now I was just 5 diameters dilated, I still had to wait. Dalia said she had to go out to drink a coffee when I heard the door opening again just when she had left.

Haha, you forgot your money Hun?

What? I heard a man’s voice said. I recognized that voice, it belonged to Urs. I turned to look at him.

Urs? What are you doing here? I asked, thinking I was just seeing things.

Is it my child?

Urs...

Please, tell me, is it my baby you are carrying? I need to know, I promise not to be angry.

I’m so sorry for lying to you, I said crying. Yes, you are the father!

He looked down, took a big breath and then looked up at me again and this time smiled. He went over to the bed and gave me a big kiss.

Oh I knew it, I love you so much Anna! I was so jealous when you said that it wasn’t my child back in London.

There can never be another man than you Urs, I lov.... I managed to say before everything turned black.

Chapter 20

I had blacked out because my mantrix had started to bleed and the ublilicard cord had found it way around the baby’s throat. They had to do an emergency caesarean section to save both me and the baby. I woke up the following morning and the first thing I saw was Urs sitting on a rocking chair beside me with our child in his arm.

Urs! I whispered.

Oh sweetie, you have woken up. I was so worried!

What happened? What did we get?

They had to do an emergency caesarean section to save you and our beautiful daughter, he said handing her over to me. I got tears in my eyes as I first saw her, she was so beautiful. It was a bit difficult to see who she looked like the most, but her eyes and lips were all daddy’s and the nose and blond hair was me. I started stroking her cheek and a smile appeared on her face.

So what name does your papi have for you? I asked looking at him.

You want me to give her a name?

Yes, papi will choose the first name and mommy the second. So what have you decided papi? Said smiling at him. He looked at me with a big smile and then at our daughter.

Izabella, he said.

Hmm.. Izabella. I like that. Izabella Joy Buhler I said to her and she gave us that beautiful smile again. Well I guess she liked that papi, I said giggling.

Urs took Izabella and laid her on the crib so she could sleep and then returned to me, he took my hand and said:

Anna, I’m so sorry for how I treated you when I found out about your past. I didn’t mean to say those things but I was just in chock. You are the best thing that has happened to me and my children. The course of the last 8 months you have been away from us has been horrible. I missed you like crazy and I realized that there couldn’t be another woman for me, you are THE right one. The right for me and my children.

But my past?

It doesn’t matter, as a matter of fact I’m happy about your past as it has made you the person you are now. Totally wonderful! I want you to return back home with me, but not as the children’s nanny or my girlfriend but as my fiancé!

What?

Anna would you make this stupid and stubborn Swiss the happiest man alive by becoming my wife?

Are you sure?

I haven’t been more sure about anything in my entire life.

Then I say..... YEESS!!! I screamed and he bent down and kissed me with such passion.

Well here it comes.. The last we will hear from Urs and Ana..


Epilogue

I’m sitting right now at the backyard of our house in Switzerland, yep we moved back when IL DIVO decided to stop recording music and stop touring as all of the guys wanted to spend time with their families and they were growing for every year. Ten years has passed since Urs came to Cambridge to bring me back to the family and 10 years since our little princess was born. Today she is 10 years old and we are having a big party for her, all her friends and ours are here aswell. Our singing princess has inherited her father’s beautiful voice and goes to a music school.

The divos are back in the music room looking at old pictures and I think I can hear music coming from the room, they always start singing every time they meet up. I think they miss their Divo life, touring around the world, fans doing anything for them and the success. But they were happy being at home with their families.

Markus is sitting and watching the children play as he is carrying his first grandchild; yes Alicia made him a granddad. She had a beautiful son a few months ago and her husband is here aswell. Nela who is 24 now and work at an art gallery in France is here too, with her boyfriend and I think they have some good news for us.

The twins arrived just a few minutes ago, both of them are 19 now and are studying Science at the university in Zurich. But they too inheritated something from his father as they both play in a band, but they play Jazz. It’s hard to not have them around but they come to visit they old papi and mami every other weekend.

Our little Lucia moved out last year, it was so hard for us well especially for Urs; she is studying at the ballet academy in Zurich. She doesn’t live far from her brothers and it is nice having them close, so her brothers can help her with everything. But she has also started dating someone and it’s getting serious cuz she’s bringing him over, the first boy she brings home. I feel a bit sorry for him as Urs had said that the first boy she brings will not see daylight again, but I think I will have to lend the little lad a hand.

I’m sitting here on a reclining chair with Angela and Lydia on my left and Bekka on my right. Our children are all playing and running like crazy. Angela and Carlos has two girls Angelica 9 years old and Iza´s best friend and little Maria, only 4 and always running after the big girls and the boys as she likes to flirt like her dad. Lydia and David had problems getting a child so they decided to adopt twins from China, little Alexandra and Alexander both 6 now and they must be the most well behaved children I have seen in well, my whole life and sweethearts. Lydia has a surprise for her husband, last night she found out that she was pregnant, so the Miller family will soon be 5. Bekka and Seb has little Christophe 5 years old and a charmer just like his dad, he even got the gap between his front teeth. Bekka is expecting their second child who will arrive any day now as her tummy looks like it will explode, they are hoping for an little Gabriella.
Then there is an little young man who is trying to flirt with his bigger sisters girl friends... that Casanova is our little Nikolai Toni, who is turning 5 in one month. He has been a ladies’ man even since he was born, we saw him give the midwife that help deliver him a blinky wink and smile when he came out. And he is even worse now when his "uncles" has thought him some moves, like on one of Iza´s friend he did the eyebrow move and with the next he gave the biggest smile he could, the third he gave a kiss on the hand calling her "Cherie" *rolling my eyes*. Oh now he’s trying the trick his father thought him, he has gone to the garage to take out his mini version of a Harley and put on his glasses and taken Maria for a ride. They look so cute. I won’t be surprised if they end up married when they grow up.
After Nikolai we decided not to get any more children, 5 was enough, we want some time for ourselves. I almost forgot, you may be wondering about the wedding? Yes we did get married, the same day we baptized Izabella. It was a small and intimate wedding/baptize, just our closest friends and family were there, just like we wanted it to be. The guys had surprised us with an performance singing our song "can help falling in love with you" while me and Urs danced our first dance as Mrs. and Mr. Buhler. Next year we are renewing our vows and that we will do with the presence of our children only.

The doorbell is ringing now, I think its Lucia, I better get up to save the boy from an overprotecting father. I’m sure everything will go alright; Urs will just give him a hard time at first to test him.
I hope you have enjoyed this story about a lonely orphan girl who found all she ever wished for, LOVE and a FAMILY when she knocked on that door 12 years ago.

Love //
ANNA BÜHLER