Urs was sitting up in his room a few more tubes removed from his body. The only remaining pieces were the IV and the morphine drip. He so loved his morphine drip. But he was still having trouble trying to decide what had been real and what had been a dream. Somewhere in it all he had been married. Well that of course was a dream. Unfortunately the pain in his chest told him that being shot was oh so very real. The nurses had been wonderful. A little spitfire of a nurse called Tracie, who seemed more like a hyperactive child was making it her life’s quest to make sure he was okay. He’d found out that she had pulled double shifts and it was only when the NUM had ordered her home she had gone. He also found out about the roster changes and had to smile to himself, what news would they be posting on the forum? He imagined that if he looked he would see posts of his x rays. Then he shook his head. No, this would not be the work of their fans; they were devoted, enthusiastic, loyal but not callous. .
Urs was right. The nurses had posted reports on the forum but they had been discreet and more to reassure the fans that Urs was doing well and would recover. They reported that the other Divos had been into see him but not one of them mentioned Lea’s little marriage charade. Never knew who would read it.
Urs had a big smile on his face when Tam and Lea walked into his room. He knew they had been before but it was all a bit foggy. “Hello ladies, you are a sight for sore eyes” He paused “And a sore body.” It was then that he noticed Tam. She was not herself somehow.
He looked to Lea who smiled weakly. “I think you two need some time alone. The others are outside Urs but we have to be at Simons’ by ten.” She sighed. “You need to hear this from Tam as much as she is the one who needs to tell you.”
Tam turned to Lea and shook her head. Lea took her hands. “Tam, you and I are friends right? And I don’t want to loose you anymore than you want to loose Urs okoy. You know this is what you have to do.”
Urs was getting worried; as Lea left he asked Tam a question. “Why does Lea think you will loose me?”
Tam went to speak but her voice failed her. She had not spoken all morning. Urs guessed that it was something stressful to stop her from talking to him. “Would you feel better if you wrote it down?”
She nodded and Urs made a move to get some paper out of the draw of his bedside table but cried out in pain. Tam rushed to stop him with tears in her eyes, she had hurt him again. But she did find the pad and pen and began to write down the short version of what had happened while he had been in hospital, pulling off pages as she finished them. Urs read silently each page she gave him. On the last page Tam wrote in big letters ‘I am so sorry’ gave the page to Urs and began to leave the room. Urs made a quick move to stop her and once again the pain wracked his body. “Tam wait!!!” Urs slumped back into his chair with eyes closed tight trying to regulate his breathing and hit the button on his morphine drip.
Tam stopped more because she heard him cry out than anything else. Urs was sure she had left until he felt her gentle touch on his hand. He opened his eyes to see the tears in Tam’s eyes and the pained look on her face. He squeezed her hand. “Please don’t leave me Tam. I couldn’t bear it. If you leave I would rather die, nothing in this world would matter if you left.”
Tam shook her head and knelt down in front of him putting her head on his knees. Urs stroked her hair. “I don’t want you blaming yourself, not now, not ever. Promise me.”
Tam looked into his so sad eyes and spoke for the first time that day. “I promise Urs.” Then put her head back in his lap. In the future most days Tam could keep her promise but every now and then the guilt would surface causing the ache to return.
Urs’ morphine was taking hold and he fell asleep while he stroked her hair. This is how Lea found them when she stuck her head into the room to see how things were going. She smiled. She had asked Tam to do a hard thing but the sight before her told her it had been the right thing. Sebastien had been right. It would take an act of God to separate these two but it might take a few earthly angels to keep them together until they figured it out.
Lea gently tapped Tam on the shoulder. “We gotta go Tam.”
Tam stood and kissed Urs. “I’ll be back later.”
Urs let out a sigh and moved his head but he did not wake.
The spitfire of a Nurse, Tracie had the other Divos’ bailed up in the corridor firing questions at them faster than they could answer which in a way was good as they did not have to answer many of them. She did however make a very thorough check of David’s cast and told him to get himself down to the orthopaedic outpatients to have it looked at. It was rubbing on his skin and she did not like that. “You come back up here without at least an appointment and I’ll drag you down there myself.”
David gave her one of his biggest smiles. “That a promise?”
“Baby that’s the truth.” Leaving them all laughing she went to check on Urs.
David’s eyes fell on Tam. “You and Urs all good now. No more talk of leaving?”
Tam nodded just as one of their guards approached. Lea put up her hand and he returned to his station. “We need to leave.”