Chapter Forty Six



‘Honey, what are you afraid of?’ Rowi asked Fara later that day. They were in Fara’s bedroom, talking.
‘I’m not!’ Fara laughed.
‘Then admit how you feel’ Rowi said.
‘I don’t know how I feel!’ Fara replied.
‘You’re lying’ said Rowi.
‘No I’m not….’
‘Oh honey. Honey’ Rowi consoled her friend.
‘I’m not lying…’ Fara shook her head.
‘Take a moment and think. Then tell me what you think of Urs. Really think I mean?’
‘What…how do you feel about Seb?’ Fara asked.
‘I love him. I think I would die if I could never see him, be near him or touch him ever again. Seeing him upset makes me unhappy. Him laughing and happy makes me what to laugh and smile’ Rowi replied in honesty.
‘Oh…’ Fara mumbled.
‘Go on? How do you feel about Urs then?’ Rowi then asked her.
‘I…I feel the same’ she admitted.
‘As I do, about Seb?’
‘Yes’ Fara nodded.
‘Then you love him. You’re in love with him’ Rowi corrected herself.
‘Am I? am I really?’ Fara, slightly stunned, asked.
‘Yes honey, you are’ Rowi reached out and patted Fara’s arm.
‘But I’m scared…’
‘About what?’
About him changing his mind and hating me. Breaking my heart…’
‘But you denying your love for him is breaking HIS heart’ Rowi then pointed out.
‘Is it?’ Fara asked.
‘Can’t you tell? Can’t you see it?’
‘He doesn’t seem to smile much…’ Fara then realised.
‘Give him something to smile about then. Tell him. Sit him down and tell him. Talk to him. Honestly and truthfully. Let him know. Only you can do that’ Rowi hugged her friend.
‘I’ll…I’ll go now…’ Fara decided.
‘Good luck honey, not that you will need it. Urs loves you. YOU!’
‘Ok…and thanks’ Fara smiled lightly at her friend.
‘Go on, make him smile again’ Rowi beamed back.
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Fara went to find Urs. She came up empty handed after a detailed search of the hotel. She looked everywhere she could think of. Then she come across his friends.
‘I can’t find him…’ she explained to David, Carlos and Dany.
‘Urs and Cydalia have gone shopping’ Carlos wiggled his eyebrows.
‘For…?’ Fara asked.
‘They wouldn’t say. But Urs said it was important’ Dany added.
‘And Cydalia went with him?’ Fara asked for confirmation.
‘Urs said that he needed a female touch. Cydalia offered her expertise’ Carlos wiggled his eyebrows again and winked.
‘Oh. Right’ Fara nodded, puzzled.
‘Expect a surprise when they get back!’ David smiled at Fara.
‘Hmmm…’ replied Fara, sadly.
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Two hours later, Urs and Cydalia returned laden down with bags.
‘I came to find you earlier…’ Fara told Urs as he and Cydalia arrived back. Cydalia had smiled and then disappeared, leaving them to it. She could sense a row coming on.
‘Oh? Is it serious?’ he asked, placing his bags down on the floor at his feet.
‘I…I need to talk to you, about something’ Fara decided to come straight to the point and tell him.
‘Is it important?’ Urs now asked, looking at her.
‘Yes’ Fara nodded.
‘Life or death serious?’

Well…no’
‘Then it can wait. I’m actually busy at the moment’ and with that, he picked up his bags and off he went, leaving Fara, standing there, opened mouthed wondering what she had suddenly done wrong for him to act this way towards her.
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‘Well?’ Rowi asked Fara excitedly a little while later.
‘Well what?’ Fara asked.
‘You and Urs? All sorted?’
‘No’ Fara sighed.
‘Why ever not?’
‘I went to find him. He was out. Shopping. With Cydalia’
‘But he’s back now. I just saw him’
‘I know…I…tried talking to him. I did…’
‘Try again’ Rowi urged her friend.
‘But he just ignored me…’ Fara sighed.
‘What?’
‘I asked, if I could talk to him. He said no’
‘Doesn’t sound like Urs…’ Rowi realised.
‘I know. See? He’s gone off me…’
‘Maybe, he was busy’ Rowi offered by way of explanation.
‘Yeah. Shopping. With Cydalia’ Fara couldn’t keep the sound of jealousy out of her voice. She had hated the idea of him with another woman, especially one who was a friend. It hurt her more then she cared to tell anyone.
‘Try him again’ Rowi prompted.
‘I’ll try. But I doubt it will be worth it..’ Fara sighed.
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Fara walked into Urs’ bedroom just in time to see him hide something in a bag.
‘You could have knocked first…’ Urs moaned. He sounded angry, really angry.
‘I did’
‘Right, are you ready?’ he then looked at her.
‘What for?’
‘Our horse riding’ Urs reminded her, he tutted.
‘I…I actually need to talk to you, about something’
‘Not now Fara. Come on, or we’ll be late’ his tone was cool, detached almost. It scared Fara.
‘Ok…’ Fara sighed, following Urs out of the room. She bit her tongue to stop herself from dissolving into a crying, hysterical woman.
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As Rowi and Seb babysat Amelia, Urs and Fara went horse riding.
Urs loved horse riding and was amazed to see how well Fara could also handle a horse.
‘I’ve been riding a few times in my life’ she admitted as they rode along, side by side.
‘You’re a natural’ he said, sounding impressed.
‘Can we talk now?’ Fara then asked as their horses continued to trot along together.
‘Yes. I’ve been meaning to tell you something…’
‘Oh?’ Fara nervously asked, licking her lips.
‘I contacted Marcus. He’s…he’ll be there, when we get back’ came Urs reply, he wasn’t looking at her when he said this.
‘Why?’
‘Because I’d like to meet him. The man who is going to be father to my child’ Urs replied, turning to look at her now. His eyes seemed funny somehow Fara thought. Like they weren’t quite all there.
‘But you said…’ Fara muttered.
‘I changed my mind’ he almost spat at her.
‘Why?’
‘Because I realised. I can’t force you to feel something you can’t. So the kidnapping is over. You win. Marcus is coming to collect you’ Urs told her.
‘I…I don’t want to go’ Far sighed.
‘What…?’ Urs looked at her like he was seeing her for the first time.

‘I said, I don’t want to go’
‘Why not?’ he asked, staring at her as though she were a madwoman.
‘You know why not Urs’
‘But I’m letting you go. I’m letting you go and be happy’
‘You don’t need to let me go for me to be happy…’
‘I thought that was what you wanted? Freedom, from me?’ Urs asked.
‘Not anymore’
‘What changed?’
‘Rowi. She made me see. Made me realise. But of course…now I see that its too late’
‘Yes, its too late’ Urs agreed.
‘You’re letting me go. With Marcus’
‘It is what you wanted’ Urs reminded her.
‘I changed my mind’ replied Fara.
‘So did I’ came Urs’ response.
‘Could I…could I change it back?’ Fara asked.
‘Not now. No’
‘Oh. Right’ Fara sadly nodded, tears in her eyes. She blinked. Not wanting to show Urs just how upset she was at this point.