Chapter Thirty Eight




‘Not about Amelia’s parenting you haven’t’ Rowi nodded towards Amelia. She was now sitting on David’s knee, laughing at something. She so looked like Urs. The same colour eyes, curly hair like both her parents and had Urs’ nose.
‘Sweetie, why did you leave?’ Cydalia then carefully asked Fara. They were all sitting down at a table.
‘I lost my memory…then I got it back’ Fara shrugged, staring down at a place setting set at the table.
‘And that made you leave?’ Cydalia asked. She was confused at this response.
‘I came to realise, being with Urs was no good for me. Yes, I love him, but I felt myself changing…losing my identity’ Fara replied, letting out a long sigh, looking up at her friend.
‘That’s called falling in love honey’ Dany joined in on the conversation now.
‘I felt scared’ Fara admitted, shrugging.
‘But you’re back now’ Rowi smiled, hugging her friend.
‘I’m back’ Fara agreed, hugging her friend in return.
‘For?’ Cydalia asked.
‘I realised that Amelia needs to know her father’ replied Fara.
‘That’s it? Nothing else?’ Dany asked, watching David teach Amelia a trick he knew. He would make a great parent she thought, seeing how he was with Amelia.
‘Plus…I still love Urs’ Fara admitted, ‘I tried not to. I tried to ignore it. But it wouldn’t go away…’
‘You love him. Real love doesn’t go away’ Cydalia said.
‘But Urs now hates me…’ Fara then sighed.
‘No he doesn’t honey. He doesn’t’ Dany soothed, hugging her friend.
‘But I upset him…’ Fara gazed in the direction Urs had stormed off in.
‘You haven’t. Anyway, Carlos and Seb will find him’ Cydalia then soothed.
‘I hope so. I really, really hope so’ Fara replied, sadly.
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Urs, was in a bar. Trying to get drunk when Carlos and Seb eventually found him. He hated alcohol and so wasn’t doing a very good job of succeeding.
‘She hates me…’ Urs muttered when Carlos and Seb had sat down next to him with drinks. Carlos had his usual Coke, Seb a beer. Urs was actually drinking Lemonade when they found him. He had tried the local beer and it had made him want to be sick on drinking it.
‘Fara doesn’t hate you!’ Seb laughed at him, taking a sip of his beer.
‘Amelia, as you said, is proof of that’ Carlos added as Urs snorted at Seb.
‘You must talk to Fara. Ask her, find out why she came back’ Seb said.
‘She already said. So Rowi would marry you’ Urs replied to Seb.
‘And you believe that?’ Carlos asked, picking up his drink.
‘I’ve no reason not to!’ Urs muttered, playing with a beer mat as he spoke.
‘Then you will never understand women’ replied Carlos.
‘Meaning?’ Urs asked, staring at his friend.
‘Fara, has come back for one reason, and one reason only’ said Carlos.
‘For Amelia’ Urs replied, sighing.
‘Amelia, isn’t the reason’ Carlos surprised Urs on this.
‘She isn’t?’ Urs asked.
‘No. Although I am sure she may be part of the reason’ Carlos then admitted.
‘The other part being?’ Urs then asked, looking at this friend.
‘Ask Fara that. Not me’ Carlos shook his head.
Urs looked at Seb, ‘As Carlos said. Ask Fara’ he told Urs.
‘Ok. Then I will’ Urs decided, nodding his head.
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Urs, after a long search, finally found Fara and a now sleeping Amelia, in his hotel room.
‘I…I had nowhere else to go..’ Fara explained, ‘so Cydalia said I could use this room. I didn’t know it was yours until Amelia had fallen asleep’ she said, giving the reason for being in his room. ‘Shall I go?’ she asked after Urs hadn’t said anything to her.
‘No. No. Please stay’ he finally spoke, ‘she’s…beautiful’ he then said, gazing at Amelia as she lay sleeping in his bed, hugging a toy to her. A monkey it looked like.
‘Thank you’ Fara found herself blushing.
‘Was…was the birth difficult?’ Urs asked.
‘No. It was rather easy. I was dreading it, but…’ Fara lightly laughed and shrugged.
‘Oh. Right. That’s good then’ Urs smiled.
‘I didn’t know…when I left, that I was pregnant’
‘No?’ Urs asked.
‘I mean…I wasn’t on the pill when we…and I know we didn’t…use anything. But…oh I don’t know’ Fara sighed.
‘No, we didn’t did we?’
‘We should have…’
‘But I’m glad now that we didn’t. Otherwise our daughter wouldn’t be here now’ Urs smiled again.
‘That’s true’ Fara agreed.
‘The name…that you write under…’ Urs then said.
‘My…our daughters name. Amelia Jane’ Fara agreed.
‘Who is Taylor?’
‘The Taylor part…is my fiancé’s surname’ Fara answered in a low whisper.
‘Your…fiancé?’ Urs, amazed at this, asked carefully.
‘Yes’ Fara sighed, nodding.
‘You’re engaged….to another man?’ he now asked, as if to qualify what Fara had said.
‘Yes Urs. To another man’
‘You can’t be’
‘But I am’
‘You can’t be. You’re engaged to me’ Urs told her.
‘No I’m not’
‘You are’
‘No Urs, I’m not’
‘You have the ring I gave you’ he reminded her then.
‘But I don’t wear it’ Fara replied, flashing her hand about to prove the point.
‘Nor do you wear…his ring’ Urs almost spat, ’Taylor’
‘Marcus. His name is Marcus. Taylor is his surname’
‘He’s adopting Amelia?’ Urs asked.
‘Not yet. No’
‘Good’
‘That’s why I’m here…I need your permission’
‘What for?’
‘So Marcus can adopt Amelia. You see, when she was born, I…I put your name down on her birth certificate’ Fara confessed.
‘So you need me to say yes? That this Marcus can be her father?’ Urs asked for confirmation.
‘Yes’ Fara nodded.
‘No. Sorry. Not giving it’
‘Why not?’ Fara asked.
‘Because you still love me’
‘Of course I do’ Fara replied, ‘I always will. You are Amelia’s father after all’
‘And that’s it? Nothing else?’ Urs asked, feeling his heart sinking into his boots.
‘No’ lied Fara, ‘so…?’ she then asked.
‘Like I said before, no. That…Marcus can’t have my child’
‘Adopt her Urs that’s all we’re asking’
‘The answers still no’
‘Why not?’ Fara had to ask again.
‘Because you may not love me anymore…’
‘I never said that’ Fara interrupted.
‘…but I still love you’ Urs finished.
‘Why?’
‘Why what?’
‘Why? Why do you still love me?’
‘Because I do’
‘That’s not an answer’
‘It is to me’ Urs replied.
‘I…we, Amelia and I…we should go…’ Fara made a move to collect her sleeping daughters things up.
‘Stay’ Urs asked.